Hello everyone, this is my first story in a long time. Over the past few months, I have gone through some difficulties, and after receiving some comments on another Christian forum, I felt unsafe. This story will be presented in the form of a fantasy self-game.

Recently, I have felt very lonely. I hope to find a man who loves God, has good values, is kind, patient, and open-minded. Of course, he also wants to have wild sex with me in the bedroom.

Recently, I have had very intense sexual fantasies and a strong sexual desire. I recently changed my contraceptive pill (I use it to control acne and menstrual pain), and I think this might be related to my current situation.

Usually, it is like this...

Lying in bed, my thoughts began to wander. I imagined my long pillow, which would allow me to wrap my legs and arms around it. On top of it was a handsome man, who was tightly embracing me, caressing my firm breasts, and grasping my buttocks with his hands. My hands meandered down, entered my underwear, slowly removed it, and began to gently stroke my soft female scrotum, and touch my clitoris, rubbing it gently.

I began to crave more stimulation and reflection, so I started browsing the "Marriage Heat" website and reading the stories of passionate Christian couples and single Christian individuals that resonated with me. I wasn't sure if this was the right thing to do, but sometimes when I saw some comments or stories about solo masturbation, I would feel extremely excited, imagining them reading the stories while masturbating. I would imagine myself climaxing with someone, and some of the comments from single people really got me excited.

I continued to lie there, massaging the sensitive "erotic area" and trying to suppress my moans. The longer it went on, the stronger the sensation became. I increased the speed, but knew I couldn't go too fast. I was a bit prone to losing control and reached climax earlier than planned. (Is this considered premature ejaculation? Haha?)

I feel that I'm getting closer. I imagine a devout Christian man lying between my legs, his face looking down at my feminine-filled garden. He sucks and kisses my clitoris, bringing me closer to the edge of climax.

At this moment, I was trying my best to hold back from ejaculating; I felt that the climax was brewing. I slowed down and tried to savor this pleasure. I managed to hold it in, but images of my future husband lying on top of me, inserting his hard and pulsating penis into my long-awaited vagina, kept popping up in my mind. I inserted two fingers into my tight and beautiful little hole, pretending that my future husband was reorganizing my vagina.

"Oh damn!" - I couldn't help groaning. Soon I realized that I couldn't hold back any longer. My toes began to curl, and my little hole started to twitch. I tried to hold it in, but the thought of my future husband thrusting forcefully inside me and squirting out his huge semen made me lose control. This happened even faster than I expected! I tried to hold it in, stopped my fingers, but I couldn't; I was already in a hopeless situation.

"Oh damn, I'm going to cum!" I moaned, starting to convulse. To my surprise, when I pulled my fingers out, the semen sprayed onto the bed. I watched as the liquid gushed out of my beautiful vagina, and this only made me ejaculate even harder. I arched my hips and pushed upwards, unable to hold back my moans, and my body trembled.

Finally, that feeling subsided, and my heart began to slow down, and my breathing became heavy. My delicate little opening was completely exhausted, and the liquid gushing out from my lustful vagina made me feel a burst of moisture.

Thank God truly, I can enjoy this pleasure all by myself. It really enables me to control myself and avoid acting inappropriately due to extreme impulsiveness. And a wonderful climax always makes me feel happy. However, it does make me feel a bit lonely.

I hope you will enjoy this story, just as I enjoy experiencing and writing it.

In fact, as I was writing, my little hole started to stir again. As I was writing, I rubbed my clitoris and it came again, but the intensity was a bit lower. Well, I'm still very excited.

I sincerely hope this story can make you excited or feel a little moist. I hope you can follow my touch as you read, and reach the climax after finishing it.??

Alas, now I can't stop imagining my future husband forcing himself on me until I feel the pain.

God bless you!??