First of all, I would like to say that, as you might have noticed from my various comments, public exposure of one's genitals without the explicit consent of all parties does not arouse my sexual desire for me. I have worked in the field of mental health and in security departments. In both of these industries, I have come across exhibitionists and those who engage in genital exposure for masturbation. These experiences made me feel annoyed, not excited.

Let's not talk about that. I have always found auditory voyeurism and sexual fetishism quite exciting. Hearing someone having sex in the hotel room next door, or realizing that others can hear me and Vanessa, can greatly increase my sexual desire, and I don't think this is abnormal, wrong or sinful. For most of human history, people lived in very small spaces and were likely to hear each other's sexual activities every day.

However, my most extreme fantasy goes far beyond this. I long to have passionate relations with my wife in a private setting, in the presence of consenting adults. I hope they are all people who have been vetted by me and make me feel at ease. I also hope they respect my wife.

She is very beautiful, but she is a bit overweight. When we met, she was a little thinner, but now her figure is very similar to that of the late worship singer Mandisa. Mandisa was also very beautiful, but she had always been troubled by her weight and health issues. I deeply love my wife. I hope those who see her can appreciate her natural beauty instead of mocking or looking down upon her because of her exposed body.

I am willing to express our mutual love in the most intimate way under the gaze of others. If the onlookers start to masturbate and reach climax, or engage in sexual activity with their partners, it would only add fuel to the fire. I do not want any "wife swapping" or indulgence in excessive sexual pleasures. I simply enjoy the impact of the visual, auditory and sexual energy on our bodies, and appreciate the results.

I once shared this fantasy with Vanessa, telling her that sometimes during sex I would imagine it, which made my sexual experience more intense. She said, "I don't think there's anything wrong with that." I told her that I hoped to realize this fantasy one day - although I might not be able to - and she gave me a mischievous smile.

Another similar fantasy that I had since childhood was to watch someone else do what I do willingly - to cherish, touch, explore my body, and eventually reach climax slowly. To see them responding to my sexual desires, and to see them beginning to enjoy it. I never acted on it, but occasionally I would imagine it while masturbating alone, such as when my wife and I were temporarily apart.

Let me say it again. What I'm referring to here is not online pornography, nor is it exhibitionism. I'm definitely not talking about group sex or "wife swapping". I'm merely imagining a highly erotic scene that is strictly controlled and censored: People are in a private setting, touching themselves or stimulating their partners, enjoying all the visual and auditory sensations, and jointly enhancing the sexual desire in the room.

Have any of you ever had similar fantasies? Have any of you experienced something similar? I'll admit a little shyly that this is one of the items on my wish list, although I may never truly experience it.