I don't know how to let go of my resentment and start dating. My past dating experiences have made me resentful towards women. My previous ex-girlfriend betrayed me, was with several different men, and later she came to my house crying and begging me to forgive her. She kept telling me that she would reform and become better. I foolishly believed her and brought her back. But she betrayed me again. Do you want to know how I found out? She sent a Snapchat saying that a man was grinning at the camera and grabbing her butt. The next day, she also posted the scratches on his back on the post.

By then it had been six or seven years ago. Since then, I haven't succeeded in any dating attempts. Nothing, nothing, just one rejection after another. I'm not saying there weren't any second dates or no sex life; I mean there was no phone number, no dates, nothing at all. Every 4-5 months, I would randomly come across someone on Hinge who didn't reply. This was the closest thing I've ever experienced to a romantic relationship. I was also ignored more times than I was willing to admit. During those 6-7 years, I did the following: I worked 60 hours a week for 5 consecutive years, paid off all my debts, lost 40 pounds of fat, gained 10 pounds of muscle, established myself in my current career, led my entire sales team in 2024, received 2 raises and several bonuses, completely changed my style to make myself feel better, pursued multiple passion projects, and so on. I'm not bragging about myself; I just don't understand how I could have endured it for so long. I know my appearance and height are above average (I've been asked if I'm a model many times, although they might be laughing at me, and I didn't know it at the time), and I've always strived to be a man who can protect and support women.

All these failures in front of women have caused me immense pain. Even talking to women makes me feel offended. Why should I talk to a woman who has never acknowledged my existence for the past seven years? Why should I let a woman enter the world I've been striving to build? Why does she deserve my labor成果？ I think the "courting" part in dating is very embarrassing. I don't understand why I need to prove anything to these women. If I have to prove something， they should prove their value to me. They have repeatedly shown me that they don't even bother to show up. When a woman gives me IOI， I'm really annoyed. When I look at her across the room and she looks away， then looks at me with those "eyes"， I get extremely angry and frustrated， even to the point of being ridiculous.

How can I start to get out of this state? I know I will never be able to establish a healthy relationship with my current mindset. Could you give me some suggestions to get out of this situation? Also, why do I have this feeling?

Sorrow and depression