So I come home from work and my mother is in the living room crying after she found out about my hidden sex toys. At first she told me that she didn’t care what I do and that she was concerned about my health and that I might have been having sex with other guys - I haven’t. I’ve just been playing with toys by myself.

But then she wants me to try being with girls first before being with guys because she thinks there’s still a chance for me at a better life.

She thinks that being gay is abnormal and doesn’t want me to go down that path. She argues that if I’m not willing to be gay to my family members, maybe I shouldn’t be gay at all. She also cites that my aunt - who is a lesbian - is now unhappy because she doesn’t talk to the family and she lives with her dogs and she had her ovaries removed.

She thinks I’m making her life harder by going this path. She tells me that she has sacrificed her life to raising me and now she feels that it’s all for nothing if I choose this path.

I decided to concede to her that I will try to be straight because I don’t want to lose her. But now I’m struggling with my identity.

What should I do?

please help me!!